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Wednesday, July 22nd.
Dubai, United Arab Emirates

Somewhere between Sharjah Gate & Al Qusais

I saw him from the 3rd floor, standing on the ground
tears running down his face, almost crying out loud
pain so intense he was oblivious to the crowd
shameless, but a brother is supposed to be proud.

He had a ladies appeal and a shy school boy smile
the type of man girls keep in their mind for a while
He was raised by women so he had a lot of their traits
the type to cook a good meal, make you empty your plates

He had that aura, something like a charming presence
confident he can reach into any woman's deepest essense
curious, he counted his sexual partners in a year, the ones he could remember
they were at about a hundred and fifty by the time he got to november

Ofcourse his friends idolized him and lived the same
weren't they all players, and wasn't this all a game ?
where's the harm, we love women and they love us back
bury emotions, you can't see the dirty nails if the gloves are black

Sensitive yet audacious, smart and funny, a practical joker
but could be very unpredictable like a tense game of poker
quick to make a good promise to earn your trust
slick enough to make you think you won when you lost

He has a fierce love for his mom but her love story was sad
blamed his dad but his ex'll swear to me he was just as bad
maybe even worse, cuz he admitted to cheating on her twice
and broke it off before she could make him pay the price

He winced when i asked if him if she was right
and confessed he left so he wouldn't lose the fight
whats the point he said, she'll never let me back in
am guilty as sin, filthy as a dirty bin

......My work phone rang, i turned to leave but he held me back.

I was getting bored so i told him I don't think a man should cry, its for babies, last time i cried was when i lost my sisters , so man up and pull yourself together. Please, no girl is worth crying over especially if shes out with some other guy right now having the time of her life.

Shhhh... he said and motioned to me to be quiet. Peace, Be Still !

Suddenly, his world stopped, no cars honking, the streets went quiet, even the wind ceased to blow, i smirked at first, trying to play along and then i heard it, faintly at first until it became louder, clearer, The sound of his damn heart breaking. The fatal crashing of a grown man into pieces.

Have you ever lost someone you loved?

I nodded my head, not trusting my own voice anymore, still looking at him strange.

He stared hard at me, his pupils replaced by big tear drops, forming together, gathering like the desert storm in the early hours of the morning, a giant wave about to engulf both of us.

Yes.. i finally said..

I lost her.. I woke up and she was gone. he mumbled, in between biting his lips and choking back sobs.

Have you tried talking to her, i asked.

Yes, She won't even see me, she's with someone else. He claims he loves her but i know he's lying. They just met, he's just taking advantage of her situation

I paused for a while, unsure of what to say next. I mean, i agreed with his theory to an extent, women are very vulnerable when fresh out of a break-up and men can sense that and move in with the right moves, right words, just being the opposite of everything their Ex was. But then, if you was Mr. Right, she wouldn't have left so now you have to compete with Mr Right Now.

Did she do right by you, i asked again ?

She was an angel, he replied. Everything i asked for and more.

Did you love her back ?

Not at first, i did later but then she said it was too late, and she had been seeing someone. But i was there for her he insisted, i was there on the front lines of every crisis she faced.

The words of Poarie came flooding in, so i sat down, next to him and said, You're probably not in love, just hurt at the fact that you've lost someone great that you cannot have back, not to mention the fact that you feel easily replaced, especially since she loved you so much and you didn't return it at first and now its too late.

Jealousy and rage have the same symptoms as love and heartbreak. You don't realize the value of something until you lose it, thats a very true fact. Its obvious you wouldn't cry over some whore, so clearly she was a great girl and now she's gone because of whatever atittude you showed or didn't show. You hate yourself for making the mistake and for slipping and letting her slide through your arms.

I felt like singing the words to R.Kelly's 'When a woman is fed up', in order to make my point. If indeed you love her as much as you're saying then she's making a mistake leaving you, but thats something you have to deal with because you're still the reason she's packed up, ready to walk out the door.

I wish i could tell you how to deal with a broken heart, or how to get over someone, the weight loss, despair, depression, loneliness, loss of apetite, apathy, insomnia, and that crushing pain in the pit of your stomach everything you see the shirt she got you, or hear her favorite song on the radio. But the truth is, you can never get over her if you truly loved her and if she really loved you, then she's not over you yet, and things might still work out.

Will you take her back ?

Yes, ofcourse !

Even after she sleeps with Mr Right Now?

......Yes, But she wouldn't. She's not like that he maintained.

The tears kept flowing so i tried a different tactic, to bribe him with a story i rarely share.

I lost a good woman too, i told him.. would you like to hear about it, maybe it'll help you feel better ?

He looked at me and said, nothing can make me feel better except death.

I had the impulse to search him there and then, just to make sure he wasn't hiding a knife in his pocket, I have my mom to look after, as far as am concerned, no one is worth dying for !

My work phone rings again, saved by the bell i thought. I jumped up to leave but he held me back and asked me the most difficult question i've ever had to answer in my adult life.

What would you do if you fell in love and got your heart broken the same day ?

To Be Continued....